Letters to Dani

Dear Dani,

First, let me reiterate what I've said many times, which is that I'm sorry for not taking the time to write letters to you, especially because I know how much it means. My heart has hardened this past year. I feel like a part of my humanity has been taken from me. It used to be so easy to write from emotion, but now it feels almost impossible. As I think about the year we shared and the experiences, It's the little moments where you smile at me or laugh at something dumb I say, that breakthrough and speak directly to my heart.

You have always had the power to do that. For as much as I'd like to believe I'm a stubborn asshole, you invariably find a way to speak to my heart and nurture it in a way that only you can. It is one of my very favorite parts of being married to you, and I never want to take it for granted. I want to love you the same way. I want to lift you up the same way you lift me up. In my self-doubt, you speak belief, and in my self-deprecation, you speak worth.

You are so loveable Dani. I love your outlook on the world, and how you push yourself to always do more and be better. I envy your ability to focus on what you want, and your willpower for sticking with your goal even when it gets difficult. You get more beautiful every day I know you. The inner beauty that I have seen blossom has met its match by your outer beauty. I'm so excited to raise child with you and look forward to the watching and learning from your inate motherly instinct.

You are my gorgeous bride, my strong and willing teammate, my biggest supporter, my favorite person to spend time with, my favorite person to laugh with, the person who is always right, and as long as I am able to I am yours, committed fully to loving and caring for you.

I know this is short, but I'm trying to ease into writing these letters for you. I will always love you till the end of eternity. Merry Christmas Dani.

– Lovey